15 January 2010 @ 08:31 pm
Stress  
Just started reading "Shouting Out Loud", which is turning out to be totally awesome so far. I just started chapter 2 of it, and I keep commenting aloud to the situations happening through it. A lot of that involves me squeaking or groaning because some of it just gets too embarrassing for me to go through without releasing some of the frustration. But my older sister just took her meds a half hour ago or so and it makes her "irritable". So she 'asked' me to stop freaking out over here because I'm freaking her out. That bugged me a bit, but not too much. I understand what she's talking about, because when my niece starts freaking out over the damn video game they're all playing it gets on my nerves and makes my whole body cringe. But then I set the story aside for a minute, not wanting to bug her anymore and watched them playing the game. At one point in the game (Mario Bros. for the Wii), Mario (my sister) almost fell off the edge of the ice and I couldn't help but make an apprehensive "shhh" noise because I was nervous for her and hoped her character wouldn't fall. She goes "Talena, stop it!" I'm all confused, 'cause at the same time my niece is jumping around screaming about them almost losing the game so I think maybe she just said my name by mistake so I go, "me?". She's like, "Yeah. Don't make that "shhh" sound.". That kinda pissed me off, because my niece has been freaking out the entire time they've played today, and wasn't told to chill out until the third time she was loud. I only did it once and she's angry with me. I understand that she's fucking irritable from the meds, but come on. It's not like I'm doing it on purpose, or often. I even stopped reading the story because I was bothering her. They could just move to another room. It's not the only tv in the house. I know, I could move too. But I kinda don't have a bedroom I can go to and she's taken over the theater room. Now, she's upset because I'm typing too loud. I'm "slamming the keys." Holy crap. Now I'm being bitchy because I said I'd quit typing, too. Whatever. Guess I'll just sit here quietly... I wish my friends were over, too.
 
 
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[identity profile] failing-dreamsx.livejournal.com on August 29th, 2010 02:20 pm (UTC)
uh just woundering something
What is this 'Shout Out Loud' story you are talking about and can you tell me the author? or where to find it? sorry if its to much trouble.
wolfish_willow: J2 - Dorks[identity profile] wolfish-willow.livejournal.com on August 29th, 2010 09:33 pm (UTC)
Re: uh just woundering something
It's no trouble. ^-^ I love getting to rec fics that I really enjoyed to other people.

The author is [livejournal.com profile] blynnk

Here's the link to chapter one of Shouting Out Loud
Summary: Jensen and Jared are college students who are nothing alike and meet for the first time when they both enroll in an acting seminar. They are cast as the leads in an experimental 2-man play dealing with domestic violence.
Warnings: OVERALL: AU, physical, mental and sexual abuse, dub-con, violence, dark themes, Hurt!Jared

It's got a sequel now, though I've only read the first chapter or two.
Chasing Rainbows
[identity profile] failing-dreamsx.livejournal.com on August 30th, 2010 12:27 am (UTC)
Re: uh just woundering something
Thanks! Am going to go start reading it. Sounds good!