The episode was evil and horrible and amazing! I'm going crazy for more and now I'll have to wait all summer. *sobs* When Lucifer and Michael were on the battlefield, my best friend and I held each others' hand. We sniffed and cried and shouted "No!" and "Yes!" and "Go, go, go" at the same time. When our other friend asked my bestie's boyfriend if we were crying we were really crying we told them to shut up. Because it was just too much. It was the end. Of course we were crying...

I think the episode was put together really well. When Bobby was wondering which of the three cities they should check out, and I heard 'Detroit' and was already ready to cry.

No, scratch that. When Dean told Sam how he was a grown man and how Dean would need to grow up, I was crying. And sniffling. And right then I decided that I no longer wanted them to go through with their plan because I didn't want to see Sam taken over and controlled by Lucifer. And then they confront him and of course he knows about the rings and the cage and everything because we're only 15 minutes into the show, and they need to fill that time in with something. *chokes*

All those people in Sam's life? All of them part of Azazel's group? I just wanted to *smish* Sam and never let him go. Because it's just not fair. His life just wasn't fair and he never had a chance!

But the Impala! Oh my gosh! She was always a main character in the show, of course. But she saved the day! Who else is just thrilled by this? *raises hand* That was brilliant! I wholeheartedly approve. Because, that was perfect. We all knew that the Impala was always their home. I mean, there are loads of fics written about exactly that, and the fact that they ended the Apocalypse because of Sam's memories of their home? I think it was perfect. It fit.

I'm so proud of Dean, too. I'm heartbroken for him, because his brother is gone and he's crushed and apparently he doesn't see Bobby again for a long time. But he keeps his promise. He doesn't die, he doesn't try to get Sam back. He goes and Lisa takes him in and he stays for his 'apple pie life' just like Sam asked him to. And it hurt but it was also exactly what he needed to do. Because he's always wanted normal, as much as he denied it. He wanted to have that family, he was built for it. He needs someone to look after, someone to love. He needs family, and he can have one.

But then, the light flickers and Sam is there. Sam... And in my opinion, it's the real Sam. Don't get me wrong, I sat there right after watching it scared that it must be Michael, or that somehow Lucifer made it out. And I was even more devastated than I'd been when God didn't immediately pull him out of the hole. But I think if was really Sam. I think he was there to check that Dean did as he asked, made sure he was where he belonged and that he is going to go out on his own now or something. I have no idea how they plan on giving us another season, because it was really ended very well. Even if it is Sam, there's no way he's going to drag Dean away from having what he's always wanted, what he deserves. So I just don't know what they're gonna do. Because Dean has his 'happy ending', even if it was at a devastating price. I really don't want to see them ruin it for him. And this is coming from me, total Samgirl, who has loved Sam since the beginning ans stayed on his side all through the demon blood, and the Lilith bit and everything. And I want him to be back and I want him to have his brother, and Bobby, and their lives, but I don't want them to destroy what Dean's finally gotten for himself for that. I don't know if any of that made sense. But I needed to get it out there anyways. I hope that when they end the series, they give them a happy ending. Because I don't want their 5th season finale to be far better than their Series Finale. Like how Charmed ended... *shiver*

So those are my thoughts and feelings on 'Swan Song'. I am now off to read some pick-me-up fics. Because I'm ready to just crawl into a corner and sob and I think it might be a good idea to find something with major amounts of schmoop. *hugs*